Produce a mock-up of your current work in progress. 

Interpret this within the context and aims of your own project. It may involve some sort of test or dummy version. It may involve a physical space, or interaction with test audiences. You are tasked to respond with your own version of dress rehearsal, as close as you can to a final outcome situation but keeping some elements back whilst you continue to experiment, refine, test and gather responses. This will include aspects of presenting work and sharing final outcomes with audiences.

I show my mockup as an embedded PDF file in the feedback section of this month’s submission. I feel I should comment on where my chosen works come from, my inspiration and doubts. Some of these works go back to the time when Rebecca was in hospital. These images sat on my computer and I didn’t know what to do with them. The photographs were a sign of my sense of grief. It wasn’t understood and was something that became a part of my while my life drifted on seemingly without direction. The photographs of Rebecca when she was ill signposted this part of my life lying in dark corner of a hard drive on my computer. Only when my level 3 study began and I tried to understand loss and to expand my knowledge of this subject, did it occur to me that I could bring these photographs into the light, look at them, remember (although as my studies have shown memory when attached to the photograph does not find what we expect.) Re-purposing these works for my project gave them new life. I shot a new image in this early sequence of Rebecca’s memory box which I felt filled a gap in my narrative, expressing that although she was dead, the grief and emotion lives on. My conceptual works were mostly new pieces, shot in different locations and at different times to try and express a different sense of loss, that which asks more of my audience and which, creatively, asked different things from me as the creator. One image in these conceptual pieces for this mock-iup comes from experimentation into glitches which seems to be a good match for the sudden and unexpected nature of most deaths. Another shows a cliff with a small child perched at the top. I need to reshoot this image as the cliff is a shot taken by someone else. When my eyes recover and I can see again, I will do this. Another shot in here shows a child I found in some images bought online. The child looks over her shoulder at us. Although we don’t know who this is, conceptually this child takes the place of Rebecca. Another shot imagines the shore of the River Styx, using overexposure to create a sense of things we can’t quite comprehend. My final shot uses a crowd scene from a gig I went to. I imagine the people there who all face the front as queuing for their space and time in death. My final piece is not a photograph but an installation of a see-saw to represent balance between life and death and of movement between these states. This piece been a real struggle to get ready, having issues with a pivot and whether to make this myself or to try and source one. It has taken many months of effort and annoys me that I cannot yet show this work as part of mock-up.